Sometimes when I pray

my hands grip each other tightly, fingers interlocked, thumbs folded over each other. Sometimes my hands are clasped, a hollow space between them, at the ready like a cheer captain. Sometimes my hands stand tall and flat, pressed together, swishing back and forth like a fish’s tail, resting against my bowed forehead. But sometimes when I pray, my hands wipe tears, smooth hair out of eyes, deliver a meal to someone’s doorstep. Sometimes my hands slam … Continue reading Sometimes when I pray

Reasons to Live through the Apocalypse

The constellation Orion. Latte art. The Classics you never read. Salt Cookie ice cream from Blue Seal. The soft dough of toddler feet in your hands. Speaking of dough: warm, homemade cinnamon rolls covered in gooey icing. Text threads with college friends. Donut shops you haven’t discovered yet. Dinner table shenanigans. Glowing faces with puckered lips, hovered over birthday cakes. Birthday cakes. Wine tasting in Argentina. Double decker bus rides in London. I hear Alaska is amazing this time of year. Continue reading Reasons to Live through the Apocalypse

Do you believe in magic?

Do you believe in magic?The kind that conjures colorful blooms from bulbs buried in the cold ground?Or, poof! delivers a snow day right to your front door?Do you believe in magic?The kind that transforms a power outage into a candlelight dinner and cozy evening by the fire?Or hides you in the branches of evergreens, rows of would-be Christmas trees suddenly a fantasy forest?Do you believe … Continue reading Do you believe in magic?

JOY

Joy feels elusive lately. But I spy bloomsOn the cactus, just in time for Thanksgiving.Yes, Just in time to mendOur aching hearts, Yearning for light on these dim late-autumn days. Joy says,Open up, unfold, hold your head high.You only lose when you give in to the darkness. Looking for more words about books, motherhood, life as a geriatric millennial, and finding beauty in sacred/ordinary things? Subscribe to … Continue reading JOY

Haunted House

There’s a guy in the next town overwho fills his lawn with death:40-foot skeletons, fake gravestones,a grim reaper wielding a scythe(it’s a bit much).But when I turn away, I see the house across the street:purple mums on the front porch,Welcome wreath on the door,and, flapping in the sunshine,stars and stripes, sandwiched between two Confederate flags.I am not afraid of ghosts; it’s the living who haunt me. Looking for … Continue reading Haunted House

A Prayer of Thanks for an Aging Body

Thank you, Lord, for the ache in my neckwhich pops up now and thenafter a night of restlike a broken jack-in-the-boxthat’s missed its cue.That is, thank you for the painand how its presenceilluminates its absenceelsewhere. I give thanks for this brainwhich used to fetch me such good marks in school (the best in the class, notthat you asked). That is, thank you for the humilityI wear like a … Continue reading A Prayer of Thanks for an Aging Body

Sweet Tooth

Once, after nap time, I found half of a cherry Blow Pop stuckto my son’s bed sheets.His fingers and chin glistened, stickywith sugar, bright with the color of joy. His toddler lips were garish, as though an unsteady handapplied lipstick to them in the dark.He’d always had a weakness forthe saccharine, pilfering treats and leaving the evidence behind:a cache of candy wrappers in his closet,cookie crumb trails on the … Continue reading Sweet Tooth

[The Beauty of] M[otherhood]

Motherhood is messy. It’s mounds of mac ‘n’ cheese and macrame art. Motherhood magnifies mere mortals, makes Marian martyrs out of mall rats. Motherhood is a masquerade, a mission, a mirror. It’s the ministry of missing mittens. It mutates and metabolizes, muddles minds and mesmerizes. It’s the merging of meek and mighty. It’s malodorous and melodious. It’s midwinter mud pies and midweek mayhem. Motherhood is … Continue reading [The Beauty of] M[otherhood]

Midnight Scream

We learned lyrics to the fight songsang them in a sea of strangers on Saturday morningsthen, fueled by victory or losswe looped arms around each other’s shoulders and swayed to the softness of the alma mater.They told us if we walked into a crowded bar inBrazil and yelled, “Go Green!” someone would respond, “Go White!”because that’s what it means to be a Spartan.And we believed … Continue reading Midnight Scream